< Back
Date
Ever since quarantine I've slipped back into a nocturnal schedule. Wake at 4pm and sleep at 4pm. The anxiety about the future is what mostly keeps me up at night.
I'm supposed to graduate in a term and job opportunities seem to be absymal. I'm scared of not being able to get into a related industry to my degree and derailing my career progression for a couple years. I'm so anxious I can't even begin to look for jobs.
Many of my friends have fallen back into their depression and being forced to distance yourself from friends and family isn't helping either. It turns out mindset from living back to just surving and it is largely damaging.
My family knew of this virus from the early days. Monitored it since early Jan and we knew with sinking hearts that western countries would be hit the hardest as they had no culture of wearing masks. In fact they discriminated against those who did, against those who were trying to protect themselves and those around them. They were abused over and over all around the world and it forced us to remember that racism wasn't 'better' in our age. It was just hidden better. It forced us to remember that our normalcy of before was a pile of cards waiting to collapse and the virus exposed all society's flaws.
And yet I can't help thinking I wish things all returned to normal.
I'm supposed to graduate in a term and job opportunities seem to be absymal. I'm scared of not being able to get into a related industry to my degree and derailing my career progression for a couple years. I'm so anxious I can't even begin to look for jobs.
Many of my friends have fallen back into their depression and being forced to distance yourself from friends and family isn't helping either. It turns out mindset from living back to just surving and it is largely damaging.
My family knew of this virus from the early days. Monitored it since early Jan and we knew with sinking hearts that western countries would be hit the hardest as they had no culture of wearing masks. In fact they discriminated against those who did, against those who were trying to protect themselves and those around them. They were abused over and over all around the world and it forced us to remember that racism wasn't 'better' in our age. It was just hidden better. It forced us to remember that our normalcy of before was a pile of cards waiting to collapse and the virus exposed all society's flaws.
And yet I can't help thinking I wish things all returned to normal.